...And We Are Back

Hi! We are Cathy and Dave. We've been on an amazing journey to become parents. It took us nearly seven years; but we brought our first son, Justin, home in October of 2011. Last December, we brought Ethan home as Justin's brother. Our goal is to go back one final time, to bring home our daughter, Masha.

Dave sez, I hadn't really planned to take time away from keeping up and updating our 'blog. It's been kind of an unplanned hiatus. If you're a parent, maybe you can easily understand what it's like. The passed seven months, with both boys, have been busy. Our journey shifted from the "wanting" to the "having". Cathy and I had spent so much time together, just the two of us, that once Ethan came home, I felt that, having the two boys meant spending my time with them. Doing things with them. Making memories with them. I looked back on when I was growing up: my own Dad and Mom worked long hours. They worked, then came home and did things around the house. We didn't spend a whole lot of social, family time together. So, when I got to be a teenager, and I had friends, I spent time with my friends doing fun things. When I thought of spending time with my parents, the word "fun" never came to mind. In a lot of ways, Justin and Ethan are very different from me; but, when we spend time together, I want them to look back and remember it as being fun. Fun. Enjoyable.

So, I haven't had a whole lot of personal free time away from the boys. Justin's schedule for school was pretty early. He had to get up early to catch a 6:35 bus to school. Ethan had Justin's old bus routine, where he caught an 8:10 bus. After putting him on the bus, I dropped Cathy of, and then headed in to work. There's not a whole lot to do outside in the winter. Maybe sledding and tubing. Every day, the boys would ask if they could play basketball; or ride Justin's bike; or play soccer; or go on the trampoline. When Justin first came home, we enjoyed a really mild winter. It was cold, but we didn't get very much snow until March; winter's last gasp. Justin probably figured it would be the same again this past winter. Funny, not so much. There wasn't a whole lot of time spent outside. Beyond shoveling, Ethan got bored with sledding and came back inside to play video games.

We're all glad that the seasons have finally changed so that the boys can go play basketball, ride bikes, go on the trampoline.

But, I'm starting to feel like a drained battery. I'm feeling more and more the need to plug-in to recharge.

Cathy and I have gone from staring at each other, to running to karate three nights a week and family movie time. Bedtimes that start at nine at night and drag on for a half an hour. Basketball, baseball, football and trampoline. going out into the back field, or down the street, for soccer. Ethan wears out quickly, runs out of steam, gets bored and wants to go back inside to watch a movie or play video games. Justin just goes like he is a solar battery. The three of us have to find a common ground so that Ethan gets enough activity; and, there is some way to reign in Justin's dynamo spirit.

There are moments when I envy Cathy, that she can opt out. But this is what I wanted.

Let me be honest. It was a huge change for me to make the commitment to being a dad. Cathy scared me when we first got married, because she wanted to have my children. She was excited about it. I was barely mature enough to be responsible for myself. I was glad that she was adult. She could be responsible enough for both of us. So, I put off having kids by telling her that once we had kids we would being doing things for them, and not the things we wanted to do. The plans that we made, the trips that we took would be for our kids, not the trips we wanted to take for ourselves. Yes, I was very selfish. But I figured if we did the things we wanted to do, then I would be ready to do things with my kids. Funny thing is, we didn't make any grand plans for ourselves. The best plans Cathy and I have ever made included a chance meeting with Aang and Spongebob and Patrick at Nickelodeon Universe. The coolest thing in the world is seeing the expression on Justin's and Ethan's faces at how excited I was to have my picture taken with these characters that they like.

They wanted to go on the log flume ride. So, Cathy and I told them we would meet them at the exit. Well, it turns out they couldn't ride without an adult. so they came back out the entrance to the ride and started looking for us. We were not too far away, waiting for them at the exit. In the crowd, Justin had to look for us. I imagine it was the same thing he did in Kiev, in Independence Square. There's all these people going back and forth to work.There's the McDonald's, and all the street vendors and kiosks. It's crowded and disorienting. That's the square. There's a busy two-level shopping mall right underneath the square. Outside the upper level of the shopping mall is the subway. There's shops and vendors there as well. The escalator ride down to the train platform is two minutes long. When you are always looking up at the world, it can be a very big and frightening place. When they finally found us at the ride exit, Justin hugged Cathy tight. I saw tears at the corner of his eye.  Cathy told me her shoulder was drenched after he hugged her. This was near the end of a day where we were all tired and irritable and cranky with one another.

He told his mother that he wasn't ready to say goodbye to us yet.

October 23rd marks our second anniversary with Justin coming home for good. December 7th marks Ethan's first anniversary.

They are exhausting, high-maintenance boys.

And they're all ours.

  

The One About The Busy Lifestyle

Wednesday, March 6th, 2013, 7:59am

Dave sez,

If you're a parent, then you already know the lesson that Cathy and I are learning. You're always on and you'll get to sleep when your dead.

We enjoy spending our time like most parents do, running from one thing to the next. Justin has karate Tuesday and Friday nights, Thursday afternoons and Saturday mornings. He just had a tournament in Bloomington that he did very well at. This week he started indoor soccer at school. He's been bugging about dropping karate for soccer. For the last year, Justin has been asking, begging, pleading and nagging about soccer. It doesn't help that we live near a soccer field, or that he has a collection of at least a dozen soccer balls. We got him a Eurocup 2012 ball before we came home together. Since then, Cathy has been tracking down signature soccer balls from players like Christian Renaldo on Team Madrid. We've been trying to find a way to balance karate and soccer. Hopefully, indoor soccer a couple days a week at school will hold him until we can get him in a league.

Maybe you saw some of the pictures from our photo shoot. Week before last we went over to Essex Park, near the house with Tessa Leen and had some pictures taken. It was amazing to see the boys show off their personalities. There were a few things that Tessa asked us to do, but for the most part she just asked the boys to stand still long enough to capture them on camera. Being around Justin as long as we have been, we're pretty much kinda used to his signature poses, moves and smiles. We're getting used to seeing what Ethan comes up with. he has the signature "Thinker" and John Belushi one eyebrow raised move. He likes to do the goofy tongue wag move. That move kinda drives both Cathy and me crazy. All of a sudden, he break out that goofy face. Cathy will tell him to stop. I'll tell him to keep his tongue in his head.

What we're noticing is that Ethan has a few survival instincts that he needs to let go of. He really is like Jan Brady. He is constantly comparing with Justin. What we're trying to help him understand is that Justin has been home for a little over twelve months, and Ethan has been home only a few weeks. Tomorrow, March 7th, will mark three months since Ethan cam home to us for good. Ethan believes in entitlement. He doesn't ask, he announces what he is going to do next. It starts with the big bathroom announcement. "Me go bathroom!" I tell him every time that he doesn't need to release doves, roll out a red carpet and throw down rose petals. When my dad would excuse himself, Mom would always kid him that if he was gone "too long" she would send out a search party.

The next announcement is, "Me go play Wii!" Um, no, what you're looking for is "May I go play Wii?" Sentences that are questions begin with the words "May I".

Probably the funniest thing Ethan will do is when he is asking to play the PSP or DS, he will struggle with the words and outline the shape of the game with his fingers.

We've caught him speaking clearer English around other people when he didn't think we were watching. That did not go over well. Neither does his tattling on Justin.


Now, I believe that whistle-blowers should not be punished for revealing the truth. But there is a difference between uncovering something wrong and finger-pointing and assigning blame. We all do it.

When Mom and Dad tell you to do something, the acceptable response is, "Yes ma'am" or "Yes sir", not an entire monologue. Taking your plate to the sink is not an opportunity for debate. Garbage like gum wrappers go in the garbage can. Before putting your clothes in the laundry, empty your pockets. Unless it's money. No one wants to hear, "Justin, Justin, Justin!" Thanks for your help, but Mom and Dad see all and know all. We even know what you are thinking.

Justin's showed us a great deal of maturity and responsibility in the time that we've known him. Ethan has shown us that he believes he can skate and slide by just by flashing a sweet, toothy grin. He's become more of a challenge than Justin was. We could see that Justin was angry, and slowly that anger slipped away. We're trying to keep Ethan from developing into an arch-villain. We're trying to encourage cooperation and build teamwork, rather than competition. We're seeing that Ethan is very competitive with Justin.

The most important lesson we're revisiting with Ethan, that we still work with Justin every day on, is unconditional love. Love isn't earned, like privileges. Bad behavior doesn't take it away; good behavior doesn't make you a favorite or special or better. Love is an equalizer.

Really, when it's all said and done, time is love.

Might For Right! Justin's Karate Tournament

Dave sez,

Here is a recap of Justin's performance this past Sunday at the National Karate Team Championships & Intramural competitions.

He was partnered with another boy, named Anthony, from his class for the Shee Young Bo form. Anthony was sick all last week, so the boys worked separately, and then on Sunday, the put the final touches on their Bo form, before stepping in front of the judges.

Here is the video of their performance:

Here is the score they got:

 

Justin sparred after the Bo exhibition. Here is the video of his first match:                         

                        

He won his first match, but not his second match. One of his instructors, Mr. Rasinski said that he should have won. But, Justin and the class he was in were waiting a half hour before their matches, and that waiting seemed to get inside Justin's head and by the second match he was a little nervous, he told me.

Here's the video from the second match:                                   

                          

The official, seen in black, called another official over to watch Justin. The official, Mr. Boone, who knows Mr. Rasinski, complimented Justin on his "slick moves". Maybe he saw how nervous Justin was. Before handing out the awards, he complimented Justin again. We had a chance to talk after the matches were over and he kept complimenting Justin.

If he was doing it for my benefit, I am grateful. I am so proud of my boy!

Here's the video of the awards:                        

                         

Third place for Shee Young Bo form and sparring. That's not bad. We are so proud of our boy!

The One About The First Star Wars...And Other Neat Stuff...

Dave sez,

Hi! We're Cathy and Dave. As seen on ABC 6 News KAAL-TV with anchor Laura Lee. We moved to Rochester ten years ago; and, after being married for fourteen years, Cathy thought it was time I stopped procrastinating and started thinking about our family legacy. We started a fertility program, and she was diagnosed with cancer. We were lucky not to lose her, but our options changed. We spent nearly seven years trying to adopt before Justin found us...

We're trying to get the boys to understand that it is not ALWAYS playtime. What parent doesn't have THAT challenge?! It's not easy, because these guys are enjoying their freedom. Give an inch...

So, Cathy had a thought. After church this passed Sunday, she gave Justin instructions on what he and Ethan were supposed to do. Then WE went to the store. While we were gone they were supposed to get the job done. When we got home, and I came in to open the garage door, they were sitting watching television.

"Popi!" Justin jumped up out of his chair. He told me what he had done and what Ethan had done. "I put my hand IN the toilet and I cleaned it." What parent wouldn't be proud to hear THAT walking in the door?

When Cathy pulled the car in the garage, I told her it was white glove inspection time...except on the toilet bowl.

We're going to make this more of a routine. We have plans for this Saturday and Sunday. Justin has a karate tournament, where he will be showing off his form with his staff, and sparring. We got a nice breather, and the job got done.

While we were out, we found a pretty inexpensive copy of The Last Starfighter. A sci-fi movie from the mid-'80's starring Robert Preston. Cathy and I kept expecting him to break into verse when there was "trouble with a capital 'T' - and that rhymes with 'P' - and that stands for 'POOL'!"

I'd been trying for almost a year now to get Justin interested in either Star Trek or Star Wars. The Clone Wars animated series on Cartoon Network is totally different from the Star Wars films. Especially the GOOD Star Wars films. You know what I mean.

Justin really got into The Last Starfighter. Now, we'll be looking for Flight of the Navigator, but that's another story.

We thought we would give Star Wars a try, since it was the "boom" movie, inspiring so many other movies after it.

Every time we watch a movie, Justin has a million questions. Every one of them can be answered by, "Stop asking questions and WATCH the movie!" Why is he doing that? What's gonna happen next? How come -? "Stop asking questions and WATCH the movie!" Is he gonna -? But if - ?

At the end of The Last Starfighter, like every movie, Justin asks, Is there gonna be another one? I think there's gonna be another one! There should be another one - because that was a really good movie.

Sorry, Mr. Ebert, you can draw a complete diagram on why one movie is four stars and another is only two, but my boys KNOW a good movie when they see one.

Justin made it through the original Star Wars with extra, unnecessary CGI heavy footage with eyes as big as saucers. I even grabbed my vintage Land Speeder and showed it to him. He thought it was pretty cool. He even tried rolling it across the dining room floor.

I made him repeat after me, "Han shot first."

As he was going to bed, we made plans for The Empire Strikes Back.

When he got home from school, Mom let him call me at work on my cell to ask a question.

Can I go ahead and watch the next one? Oh-kay...but can't you wait until I get home and we watch it together? I want to watch the next one now! Can I, Popi, please? *Sigh* Some days it is harder than others to be a parent. Okay. I walked him through where he could find it on his own. Thank you, Popi! I love you! See you tonight!

When I got home to take him to karate, he told me that he LOVED Return of the Jedi...and The Phantom Menace!

WHAT?! You didn't wait for me to watch the third one, and then you went ahead another movie and watched the fourth one without me?!

GO TO YOUR ROOM, MISTER! YOU ARE GROUNDED FOR LIFE!!!

What I really said was, That's great, buddy, I'm glad you enjoyed them...with out me. And that is how I ended every sentence about the movies!

Justin did have some questions about The Phantom Menace. He was asking who Qui-Gon was, and who Obi-Wan was, and where all the characters he knew were. Where is the Darth Vader? And that was when I found out he had started it, but hadn't finished it. We finished watching it together. As much as I still hated Jar Jar Binks is how loud he and Ethan laughed at the character.

Ethan has been spending most of his time playing video games while we watch the movies. He's enjoying them, but in a, they are on in the background kind of way. I had to make sure that when I showed him my Land Speeder, I made sure it was only for a couple of seconds. He's at the developmental stage where things either go in his mouth or get broken.

I doubt that he will be excited about the collection of Star Wars action figures I still have. Maybe when he's older. Right now, we just savor the moment.

The One With The Big Confession

Dave sez,

I've hesitated to share this until now because of the rule on religion and politics. There is nothing that divides us more than our views and opinions on religion and politics. We're all on our own journey of faith and philosophy. But, so many people have told me and Cathy that our story is an inspiration. So, I'd like to take a second of your time to share this:

About six weeks or so ago we were coming home from church, and I decided to tell the boys what made me angry.

We were talking about the Pastor's message that morning. The Pastor was telling the story of Job. It was right after the Sandy Hook Elementary school shooting in Newtown. We were all looking for answers, and meaning. The Pastor wanted to provide comfort and tackle that hard question, "Why?" If God loves us - Why? Why would a loving God let bad things happen to good people?

He started the message in the first chapter of Job, where God is in his office watching his plan for us all unfold, and one of his district managers, Satan comes in for a one-on-one. Think Michael Scott from The Office walking in to see Morgan Freeman. God pulls out Job's file and starts telling Satan all the things about Job he's proud of. Satan says, Let me stop you right there; and he starts telling God all the faults and shortcomings about Job. God is so confident that Job is loyal, that he says, Okay, let's strip it all down, and unplug it. Satan takes it all away. The kids, the family business, his health - everything. Job's wife thinks she married the wrong guy. His friends are sure he's done something terrible to make God mad at him. The one employee that survives probably doesn't even give two weeks' notice.

The Pastor said that God's "secret wisdom" was to make Job stronger than he was before, and show Satan just how loyal Job was. God was giving Job an opportunity to draw closer.

The Pastor shared a very personal story, about something that had happened to him that made him angry at God. I started squirming in my seat, getting choked up by what he was sharing.

It was his personal story that started me thinking about my own personal story and what I decided to share with the boys in the car on the way home. What made me angry.

I told Justin and Ethan that Mama had been sick. I was angry that Mama had been sick.

What I didn't say to them was, Why would a loving God take away our opportunity to have kids? I wondered what I had done. Why God was mad at me. I was sure that Cathy had never done anything wrong ever.

After seven years of trying to adopt without success, I started to wonder what my purpose was. What God wanted from me, why this was happening to me.

Remember, we're talking about Cathy's cancer diagnosis...

In early December 2010, I talked with this same Pastor who was speaking and asked him to help me.

I will never forget what he told me. He said, "Dave, God wants what you want, as long as it's good for you. as long as it's in your best interest."

So, I went all in, and posted on Facebook, my New Year's Resolution, "I want to be a dad in 2011".

And, Justin found us.

After I told the boys how angry I had been, Justin said, "If Mommy hadn't gotten sick, you wouldn't have had me or Ethan!"

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"...Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do."

James 1: 2 - 8

The Challenges That We Face

Dave sez,

Hi! We're Cathy and Dave. We'd been trying to adopt for a very long time. We didn't think we would every have children, until a miracle happened and we were blessed with our son, Justin. He introduced us to our newest addition, Ethan. Justin used to go by the name Georgiy. Ethan used to be known as Shani. When we went to Ukraine to bring Justin home, he introduced us to Ethan as, "This is Shani! My brother!" When we went to bring Ethan home, he introduced us to the girl that will be coming home as our daughter. He said, "Masha. Sister?" For a couple that had nearly given up hope that we would ever have ONE child, we are excited to face the idea that we will be having THREE!

It is amazing to consider God's secret wisdom in the miracle he worked in front of our eyes.

Cathy and I have spent the last few weeks since we came home trying to get over a cold and a long lingering cough. We've been blessed that over the last year, Justin has rarely been sick. He and Ethan are pretty sturdy. they bounce back pretty quickly. Ethan was sick a couple of weeks ago, but managed to rally and bounce back. We took him for his first Chuck E. Cheese! He is right now where Justin was when he first came home. But we've noticed the boys are different as far as maturity. Ethan is not as mature or as developed as his brother. Ethan seems almost infantile. Every thing he does is at an extreme. He's loud; overly enthusiastic, and amazingly enough, nearly everything goes in his mouth. We're pretty sure it's a security thing, that he sucks his thumb at night when he sleeps. He'll sit with his fingers in his mouth. He's a bottomless pit: he is always hungry.

We have three dogs; two bassets, Max and Maize, and a Jack Russell terrier, Peanut. They are adjusting, just like we are. He is so excited and enthusiastic that his affection for them is overwhelming. We've been trying to get him to keep from burying his face in their fur. he comes away from them just covered in fur. he usually does this kind of thing before he has to go any where, like school or church or out. we've had to make him change clothes.

We're trying to get him to "turn down the volume" a little bit, because right now he's dialed to eleven. On top of his enthusiasm, he's always asking questions. Obvious questions. Obvious to us; but, considering that he has only been with us and home a short while, every question has to be respected and answered.

We're trying to help him develop better habits, be thoughtful of others and less selfish, and show initiative.

First Chuck E. Cheese was an experience. Justin is used to getting a handful of tokens an playing the games. We handed Ethan his tokens and told him to go play while I wait for our food and Cathy hits the salad bar. Justin came back with a fistful of tickets, got more tokens and was off again. Ethan came back a few minutes later empty handed for more tokens. I told Cathy I didn't think he knew about the tickets. Justin came back with more tickets and got another handful of tokens. I found Ethan wandering around, watching other kids play games. He did play one game, and walked away when he was done completely ignoring the tickets coming out of the machine. We headed back for more tokens and met Justin at the table. I told him and Cathy what was happening and Justin said, Let me show him what to do. Come on, Ethan, let's go! And they were off.

We had gotten enough tokens that I took ten of Ethan's and headed over to one of the games that is all about tickets. It's that big wheel with the lever. Pull down the lever and you get tickets. It took all ten tokens, but I got him 150 tickets. He was excited, but not nearly as impressed as I thought Cathy and I thought he would be.

We struggle with getting him to listen the first time. It usually takes repeating instructions a half a dozen times before it sinks in. That's pretty true of any kid, even Justin. What we know, is that Justin's tenure has built experience. Ethan is still struggling through initiation and orientation period. His training wheels are pretty much still on.

Last weekend, over the Martin Luther King, Jr. holiday, we had a sleepover with the Justin's best friend, Alex. It was a weekend filled with sledding, Nerf wars and playoff games. It was great to spend time with Alex's parents, Mike and Andrea. They've been a part of our journey, since introducing us to Justin. we also got a chance to see Annie and Tom and their kids again. When Cathy and I think of the miracle of Justin finding us, we can't help but think of how awesome a gift we've been given. If Justin hadn't come into our lives, we wouldn't have been introduced to Ethan or Masha. We wouldn't have met other parents like us. We would have kept on thinking that we were alone and unique in the situation we were and are in. Annie and Tom blessed us with Justin, who led us to Ethan and Masha.

Watching Ethan with the other boys, he seemed a lot like the "odd man out". It wasn't so much a language barrier, Ethan is just challenged at fitting in. I can identify with that.

This passed weekend our plans changed a little, so we took the boys to Nickelodeon Universe. We'd taken the boys there when we first came home in December, but it was only for a few hours, and Cathy and I spent the time sitting and talking. This was the first trip there as a family where we all got to enjoy the rides. You can see from just a couple of the pictures how much fun we had. There was a little drama and pouting, but fortunately it didn't last long.

One of the great tips that we've learned from other parents like us, is introducing the boys to the concept of "family". When they balk at anything, we now tell them that this is what having parents is like. We are the parents, they are the child. They don't set bedtime or The Rules - we do. Mama and Popi will be respected; and listened to. Trust is going to be a long time in building, but respect has to start here at the beginning. We're still working on respect with Justin, and working on his example to set a good one for Ethan.

All in all, though, the good times far outweigh the bad times. It's great that we can all bounce back from the rough patches that we have.

It's great that every day we can enjoy our "Happily Ever After".

The Odd Couple

Dave sez,

I'm not sure which stand-up comedian said that kids are like the worst roommate you've ever had - but I believe it! As a newbie dad of two - TWO! - boys, now, I am learning that Justin and Ethan are like the worst drunk roommates - everz!

Justin is the angry drunk. The ten-feet tall and bullet proof drunk. Looking over pictures of him, and seeing him with the other boys his age from the Cradle of Children's' Hope Orphanage, he's small for his age. He might never reach the same height as Ethan or the other boys. I'm sure there are a lot of things that he is sensitive and defensive about, and his height is probably one of them. From the way he and I rough-house, I'm sure he has had to defend a spot with the other boys. His way of saying "Hi. How are you? How was your day?", is more, "You wanna fight? You wanna piece of me?" And then it is on! The fists are flying, there's usually some crying involved, but a hug from Mom and I'm fine afterward! I don't think Justin is unique in having self-esteem issues. he tends to over-compensate by telling himself and us just how good and wonderful he is. I've been warning him for the last year about saying things like, "I'm better than you!" I've been telling him that there may be some things he is good at and better at. But there will always be someone better. The angry drunk doesn't hear that, it goes right over his head. "I'm BETTER than you!" We've had our moments where he's really been angry. It's not really anger, it's fear. This little firecracker will stand in front of me and scream at me, "I'm not afraid of you! You don't scare me!" I get down on my knees so that he and I can look eye to eye, and I tell him that I don't want to ever scare him. I don't ever want him to be afraid of me. He's an awesome kid. He makes mistakes, we all do. I make mistakes as his dad. But I love him no matter what. We can fix mistakes. A little duct tape and WD-40 and we're good as new.

And it's moments like that when I miss my dad. I wish I could tell my dad what an incredible, awesome grandson he has. I do the next best thing. I tell my sister and brother what a cool nephew they have. I tell Justin what a cool aunt and uncle he has. And then he "drunk" Skypes them when no one is around and asks them why they don't have a camera on their computer so he can see them when he Skypes.

The best part about coming home from Kiev, wasn't just seeing Cathy and Justin; it was Cathy telling me that my son had called my cell phone to hear my voice on the outgoing message on my voice mail. I asked if he missed me and he smiled and said no...then, with a nonchalant shrug,  "a little bit."

My new son, Ethan, is the happy drunk. He's all, "Let's get this party started!" Every little thing makes him giddy and giggle. He cheers at the good parts of every movie, when the hero is winning and the bad guy is losing, or when one thing stops happening and another thing starts happening. He is exuberant. He is ebullient. He's the "Hold my beer for me", and, "Watch this!" He was so ready to leave the orphanage, because he was excited for the next thing. He had to have the television on and play video games at the same time. He ran around the room, looking at every thing and touching every thing. There was a piano in the room and he banged on the keys until he got bored and moved on to something else. I learned to say "Nyet!", because he touches EVERY key on a computer keyboard. When he comes into the room, he hugs all three dogs, kisses them and rubs his face in their fur. With a laugh. He rolls around on the floor with them. Now, the adult in me sees that he turns into Pigpen: a ball of dog hair. But slowly, I am learning to take a breath and count to ten and just let him get that out of his system. There is a point where his excitement and enthusiasm goes a little too far.He gets so excited that the connection between his brain and his hearing unplugs and he becomes a wild, happy drunk. We're all trying to adjust to his pure, uncut J-O-Y. There is a wonder in his eyes at every thing he sees and experiences.

What the world needs more of is to be able to break out into spontaneous song. Ethan will be doing something; and then, he'll just start singing. Loudly. At. The. Top. Of. His. Voice. Breaking the peace and tranquility of me sitting under a tree by a stream in my imagination. And then, I'm all, "Hulk, SMASH!"

Angry drunk and happy drunk tend to clash like The Odd Couple. We haven't had linguini on the walls yet, but there's been a lot of finger pointing. "Justin EVERY thing, and me NOTHING! Justin YEAH, and me NO!", then, "He's in my stuff! He doesn't ASK! He's all the time asking dumb questions! Questions, questions, questions!"

At one point, between Christmas and New Year's, Justin said to me, "Things were better here before he came here!" Yeah, because angry drunk was a solo act, and now he has to share the stage and the spotlight with happy drunk.

I was the youngest in my family. I could tell that my two older brothers didn't ALWAYS appreciate having me around ALL THE TIME. They had their own friends, their own crowd; and having a baby brother around wasn't ALWAYS cool. I'm a pretty sweet and wonderful person, but I do tend to get annoying after a while. But like any mold or fungus, I tend to grow on people and choke the will out of them so they can't run away.

I'm just waiting for a more peaceful solution than that between Felix and Oscar. They do have a lot of fun together...when they are wrestling and trying to choke the life out of each other.

I say, no broken bones and no spilled blood and every body goes to bed happy!